All The Rage

Harnessing Anger For Good Instead of Evil

I am angry. There I said it! Full on Mom Rage! I can feel it in my body. My shoulders clench, my belly contracts, my jaw tightens like I want to bite someone. I want to bite my husband. You want to know why? Great, I’m going to tell you all about it.

Well you see, we have a 7-month-old baby and a 4-year-old. My body has been through so much in the last 5 years, including over 3 years of breastfeeding, 2 pregnancies, and 2 vaginal births. Every morning, for the last 7 months, I wake up with each of our boys snuggled on either side of my body so that I can’t move. The baby is usually latched on my breast lying on one arm and the 4-year-old is snuggled on the other arm, poking the vein on the underside of my elbow over and over while the baby pulls on my nipple. It’s at this point- 5:30am or so- that I want to scream. First thing in the morning I wake up totally “touched out” and angry. I just want to sleep! I just want No One to touch my body, to suck on my nipples, poke or…