Sexy As A Mother

Musings on Motherhood, Sensuality, and Sexuality

My best work has come out of desperation. Mom Village was born from the deep dark lonely places during Covid quarantine when I found myself isolated with a 1-year-old and losing my mind. I created a meditation and Sensory Awareness group for moms to come together, to witness each other, relax, and find our sanity in community. Wild Women’s Circle came from the grieving ache of missing my old self; the one before motherhood who would bravely take rafts over waterfalls, climb mountain peaks, and travel solo around the world. So I created a space for women to come together to find that type of adventurous freedom and spaciousness in our minds and bodies.

Now I am beginning this writing project to share the work I’ve been crafting for over 15 years because it’s time to shine and I’m about to have my second baby and have a deep sense of terror of getting completely lost again, disassembled. Motherhood will do that, it takes us apart and puts us together in a way that is totally unfamiliar. I have a small glimmer of hope that having a weekly writing commitment to show up for you and myself will help me hold on to one thread of familiarity, the part of me that feels sexy, free, funny, and sassy. Not just a butt wiper and milk pumper. Are you with me?

This is a space to share musings on motherhood, sexuality, and sensuality from the perspective of a Birth Doula, midwifery student, and Craniosacral Therapist. My perspective is also as a mother of a reckless 3-year-old and pregnant with a tiny being kicking around in this belly (uterus) right now. I look forward to sharing this pregnancy, birth, and postpartum journey with you.

I also look forward to sharing an old writing project called, “What’s the difference between sex, fucking, and making love?” It started as an assignment in Human Sexuality class when I was 19 which I continued until I was 25. The assignment was to write my sexual autobiography, which I did diligently, including an interview component where I asked friends, family, and strangers the title question above. I feel confident that this writing will embarrass my in-laws, my brother, and my children when they are old enough to read. One of my favorite authors Anne Lamott wrote, “Write as if your parents are dead.” So this is me taking the liberty to be brutally uncomfortably honest with the world as a way of sharing my voice and shining a light on what modern mothers often go through to do the grueling work of raising the next generation.

For more info on Mom Village, Wild Women’s Circle, and Meditation for Birth classes see: www.carolannelesser.com